semilethal | LEO - POST MOVIE

LEO - POST MOVIE

[ nobody asks where april found the van. some mild criminal activity feels irrelevant in light of the day they just had anyway, and they couldn't exactly walk all the way back to the lair.

not with leo like...this. not just leo either; raphael couldn't hardly hold his head up, hunched and clearly wearing his 'i'm the eldest and i won't complain' face as he cradles leo so carefully on their way to the van. mikey's hands and arms won't stop trembling, even when he twists them together and presses them to his plastron. donatello is sore all over and his skin and shell feel raw, like someone rubbed him down with sandpaper.

and leo's quiet. leo's too quiet.

so there they are in the cargo van, raph tucked toward the front with a leg stretched out for mikey to use as a pillow to doze upon. april and casey sit up front, throwing concerned glances over their shoulders as often as is safe while april slowly weaves the vehicle through the half-destroyed streets toward the nearest access point. splinter sits near the doors as their only other capable fighter, though he keeps his tail curled around leo's uninjured ankle.

and donatello, he's stripping off his gloves because he's going to have to touch his brother to get a better idea of his injuries, and his skin doesn't feel like his own and that'll interfere with his judgement. the fewer layers between he and his brother, the more accurate he can be. ]

Alrighty Leon. Look alive, let's...let's diagnose.

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[casey is halfway under splinter's bed (and not commenting at all on the mess, since he has crawled through worse in his life, if barely) when another unholy shriek comes from donnie's lab that sounds suspiciously like, "MY MONSTERS"

casey wiggles out as quickly as possible at that] (They're really back there. Sensei, do we need to hide you also?)

[He almost winces at that - almost. The bed is not affording him much movement for even that. But he looks back toward the direction of the lab.]

No. Just go back out slowly and the same way we came from. I'll be fine.

Edited (when you write a tag after just waking up smdh) 2022-10-07 06:03 (UTC)

[despite the fact that shortly after they exit splinter's room (managing to grab some nearby comics to pretend to read as donnie goes tearing past with raphael trying to chase him down), casey looks positively delighted. he watches with interest over the top of his comic book as the duo disappears into the kitchen, a clash of pots and pans signaling their departure as raphael fusses and donatello rampages the entire way back to the lab.]

(...you guys are all so different, but you're still the same. It's kind of weird.)

[All right well. That just means they've diverted attention from them for now. It's only a matter of minutes before Donnie comes to ask them, and he hopes Casey can have a lying face. Or at least slightly-obfuscating-the-truth face. Something.]

...Yeah? You didn't really get to say a whole lot about them. [And the things he did say about Leo were words with a two ton weight hanging off them to place around Leo's neck. He isn't sure he wants to hear anything else about himself from the future, especially knowing that future is different than what they'll see now.]

[hahahahaha see the thing about deception is that it's pointless to learn when your enemies all just want to kill you on sight regardless. so no, casey does not have a lying face. or a single lying bone in his body. he can sneak hella good though.]

(Mm. My mom died when I was pretty young and I never knew my dad; I ended up being raised mostly by you guys and Commander O'Neil.) [casey turns a little of his attention to his comic book, enough to finally realize he's holding it upside-down and turn it right side up.] (You and Master Michelangelo most of all. Master Donatello was usually busy working and-) [he stops. glances at leo, unsure.]

[That's. Hm.

A confirmation of something he'd started to glean earlier. Raising (oh god don't say children, he's barely sixteen years old, he doesn't want to think about that-) someone is far, far at the end of his list of things he wants to think about.

But Casey hesitates. And given what he's said so far it's not that difficult to put the final piece in place.

Raph wasn't there. Casey hadn't said a single thing about Raphael since he showed up on their doorstep. It's not hard to figure out. When Casey does look at him, Leo's watching him, expression tired and drained and solemn. He knows.]

And Raph wasn't there. [He finishes, as kind as he can.]

[it feels terrible to bring this up now, when they're all safe and when master leonardo should be resting. it feels like it shouldn't be something that should come up at all, but all of a sudden casey wants to talk about it. about them, about who he grew up with, about the people who shaped him into who he is.

after all...they're gone now. in more ways than one.]

(I was too little when it happened.) [casey's voice is hushed, though neither raphael nor donatello are in sight. this is...a private moment. if anyone will understand him, it must be master leonardo, even if he's so much younger. right?] (I remember some things about him, though. How big he was. How if he picked you up, you felt invincible. Just feelings.) [casey lowers the comic book to his lap, gazing blankly down at it.] (And then, he was gone. People were always disappearing back then, but not- ...it was the first time it was someone I really knew.)

[Casey does wanna talk about this right now, and who is Leonardo to say no? It isn't as if he's going anywhere. So he listens. Tries to imagine that. Not just Raph taken where Leonardo and the others can get him back, but gone. Never to return. What would that be like? How devastated would they all be?

He thinks back to that first time Raphael was able to truly unlock his Ninpo, catching Leonardo so carefully after being thrown off the building. All the times their big brother saved their asses just by being himself.

Leonardo thinks something might permanently break if Raphael were truly forever gone. The anger he felt when the Krang simply took his brother would have been incandescent if Raphael were in a state he couldn't be brought back. But Casey doesn't remember what happened - who knows. Maybe the Krang did take Raphael. Maybe the worst did happen. They don't know what year Casey's actually from, but would he have been alive for when the Key was originally taken? Did he know all the details from his version of events? Likely not.

Where he lays on the Shelldon-cot, Leonardo's expression is tumultuous on its own journey before it settles into something like "tired". Too tired to give this the consideration it deserves.]

Well. You don't have to deal with stuff like that anymore. You're here now. Gotta be better than there, right?

Edited ("hoe" no you are not leo) 2022-10-10 11:55 (UTC)

(It is, so much better. Thanks to all of you.) [Casey looks back up in time to catch Raphael quizzically carrying a very drowsy Donatello into the room from the kitchen. "He burned through that thing like nitro fuel," Raph notes to Leo in amused disbelief, hefting Donatello up higher into his arms on his way to the bedroom when he grumbles something about revenge grmb grmml bionics.

Casey laughs quietly to himself as they disappear around the corner, but his voice is curiously thick as he continues,] (I don't even know how to say how relieved I am, but they're still...gone forever.) [His breath hitches as he reaches out and rests a hand blindly on Leo's arm, seeking comfort but trying not to hurt.] (I'm so glad you're all alive but the turtles who I grew up with, my mom, Commander April...my Sensei. I'll never see them again. They'll never even exist.)

[Everyone survived, but he's grieving all the same.]

[Leonardo is losing his mind not being able to move or do anything. His natural instinct when someone needs comfort is to hug. To drape, to sprawl across someone until he can smother whatever shitty feelings someone has dissipates. Raph's good at big hugs and emotional speeches, Leonardo's good at just being ....

Well.

Charismatic, usually. But that's debatable these days.

There's a relief in his nerves that it looks like Donatello might finally get some sleep. And he'll catch up with Raph later. But right now, Casey needs him.

(When will he get his own chance to break a little? Probably not until everyone's finally resting and he can just take himself to his own room. He'll figure out a time later. For now everyone needs him to be okay. He's starting to understand that pressure Raphael was under. Just a little, even if it's different.)]

Yeah... [Then, more sure:] Yeah. I know we're not the same thing, but. They're still with you. You've got your memories and feelings for them, so. You're not alone, Casey.

[And if nothing else? Leonardo means that.]

I know. [Casey spares Leo a small smile, strange, like he doesn't quite know how to wear one properly anymore. He doesn't know what it's like to be happy without terror still hanging over his head, and it's kind of mixing things up. He's not sure how to actually feel.] ...is it okay if I still call you Sensei?

[Wait hold on, his thoughts stop in their tracks.]

Um. Up to you?

[Honestly after everything he's a little nervous about that? But if that's what Casey's comfortable calling him, then...]

[That's definitely Master Leonardo's unsure face, so maybe Casey should try-] Um, Leo- [NOPE] No I'm sorry, I can't do it Sensei. That was weird. I can't.

[That was almost weird but man Casey didn't even last two seconds.

He's making this weird. Leonardo is actively making this weird. He manages to squirm on the Shell-cot enough to rub at his face before the strap across his shoulders dig in a little too much. Ultimately he settles for just resting his head back and making an attempt to relax (he doesn't, though. It's too much for him to relax just yet).]

It's fine. Don't worry about it.

Sorry. [Casey does at least seem genuinely regretful, fiddling with the already dog-eared page of the comic book in his lap.] I'll work on it. Maybe eventually...mm. [But, he kind of doesn't want to, anyway?]

Seriously, it's fine.

[Like they're never gonna call their dad Yoshi Hamato or Lou Jitsu, he's just... Splinter or Pops. Just the way it is, and if Casey's not into calling Leo by his name and more comfortable using Sensei then he's not about to change that.

But it seems like whatever was going on with Raph and Donnie has settled down, so he lifts his head to look back at Shelldon and then back to Casey.]

Look, uh. If it's all the same, I think thisi s gonna be the best chance I get to get some sleep before everyone's back. So. You should probably do the same while you can.

Right. Yeah, of course, I...yeah. [NOT TIRED IN THE LEAST. But as usual, Master Leonardo thinking of others and suggesting very reasonable things, no matter how much Casey doesn't want to do them and just bask in the idea of his family being whole, if not entirely hale.

Stands, carefully placing the comic back atop the stack and hesitating for a moment before carefully folding himself over Leonardo in a hug, gentle if only because he doesn't want to hurt him, and not because of unfamiliarity. Leo could probably use this, right? Sensei was always the strong one, constantly reassuring others, but he also always returned Casey's hugs with an almost desperate fervor as if he'd needed them just as badly as Casey did.] I'm glad you're going to be okay, Master. So glad. [Because he will. Master Donatello is on it; Leonardo can't be anything but.]

[Sensei who always took the time to listen. Sensei who knew that mixed or uncared for emotions could get in the way of a mission, could cost lives or the war. Sensei who always made sure everyone was taken care of first, because an unfed fighter was a hazard, a soldier running on an hour of sleep is a liability. Sensei who knew that someone distracted by their problems off the battlefield would have trouble focusing and remembering his plan details. So Sensei did what he could, and if that seemed like being in the moment caring from the outside... Well, maybe he was a little.

But Leonardo here in New York City who just wants to break down alone. Leonardo who wants to turn off the lights in his car-room for the first time in years and just let go for a little bit. And he can't do that if he has a Casey Jr. shaped shadow hanging on his every word.

The hug catches him off guard, though. It makes sense, everyone else except April had gotten one in, of course Casey would want in on that. He gives great hugs... when his arms are not literally strapped to a metal flying sentient cot. His hugs are amazing, second only to Dad and even (maybe a little ahead hoho) with Raph.

So if he sounds choked up, well. Maybe he is a little.]

Y-yeah. I am too, Casey.

[And with that, Casey leaves him to his breakdowns with a gentle squeeze and a knowing smile.
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Later that night, Donnie lets himself into Leo's room without so much as a knock. It's better if he's sleeping anyway; he needs his rest, and Donnie's just here to check his vitals. Even though Sheldon can do that. Remotely, and then transmit the results to Donnie's wrist computer so he doesn't even have to move from where he is.

As quietly as he can, he pulls a milk crate over to the cot and sits down next to it. He's typing softly at his wrist computer, display dimmed to the lowest setting and the usual "beep boop" sounds of data input silenced. He's probably going over Leo's vitals, maybe taking a scan or two. Or six. Maybe he's just reviewing his work, over and over, while watching his brother to make sure he keeps breathing.]

Edited 2022-10-25 03:24 (UTC)

[He did finally fall asleep. It took a bit, some actual conscious effort to let his mind stop running, and a promise to himself that he'll do all the front loading sleep now and be back on his normal (nonexistent) schedule after so he can keep watch on everyone else. It's blissfully quiet now, no one fretting over him or trying to get him to talk about it because god no.

It's fitful, though. The occasional twitching of a finger, the turn of his head in his sleep. Around test five is when the results spike up; pinned and he can't get up, he's trying to get up but he's stuck, and the wind is knocked out of him, why can't he just get up, he can't breathe because of the pressure pinning him down and he can't shout-

He jerks awake, trying to sit up and can't because Shelldon's keeping him secure - that whole 'no moving' thing quite serious really - so he's left to quickly get his bearings. His eyes shift around quickly to figure out where he is, what's happening, what he needs to do.]

[Of course Donnie was watching, wondering if he should wake Leo or let him sleep, when he startled out of the nightmare himself, panting and shivering.

He watches for a moment longer, before turning on the crate to rest his hand atop of Leo's and go back to the display on his computer, reading. They don't need to talk about it. He doesn't need to, and Leo doesn't want to.

Maybe this is what compelled him to come in here. Maybe somehow Donnie could tell (not that he prescribes to this woo woo science "twin" telepathy nonsense) that even if Leo wants to be left alone, he doesn't want to be alone.]

[His skin jolts at the touch but he turns his head to look at his brother. A sort of unspoken understanding there and Leonardo settles.

It goes like that for a while, a few nights. Sometimes it's just the Krang, sometimes it's a fully converted Krang-Raph piloting that stupid mech suit, sometimes it's all three Krang, sometimes it's his brothers. But he keeps waking himself up in the same manner, wordless and shaken.

One of those nights he's staring at the ceiling (can't hold comics, can't hold his phone, grip too tired still to hold a tablet) and laying quietly.]

How much longer, Dee?

[They're spending most nights in Leo's car now; Donnie's even taken to sleeping on Leo's bed as he needs to remain on the cot, though he did drag in his own soft blankets to make a sort of piled-up nest in which he bundles himself to read next to Leo nightly. They don't discuss the nightmares, they never do (and never will), but he can't let Leo wake up from those alone.

Mikey would dote. Raph would fret. And their father would pile the guilt onto Leo, with just having witnessed his son in pain. Don, he can accept his brother having nightmares as a matter of course, and just exist there as confirmation, readily available, that it wasn't real.]

Tomorrow morning, [Don says from within his blanket pile, snuggled up in a hoodie as he reviews for the eighth time the procedure with explanatory diagrams on his tablet.] The last tools I need will be here as soon as April brings them. Cleanroom's converted, I have everything else. We're both as prepared as we're going to get. [Glances at Leo over his tablet.] No eating or drinking from here out. You can have water when you wake up after the procedure.

Edited 2022-10-25 04:10 (UTC)

[He nods at the bit of instruction, the reminder, with eyes still fixed on the ceiling of his car.] Good. [His voice is cracked at the edges, threatening to shatter if he thinks about it a little too hard.] I'm ready to be fixed.

[Because that will do it, right? Don fixing him, physically healing will solve the rest, won't it? It has to. It's the worst any of them have ever been injured, so someone has to get the experience and be a test subject, he guesses. And as great as the pampering and waiting on was the first day, Leonardo is internally screaming to be able to do things on his own again. To make his own food, use his own phone, get his own damn cup from the cupboard.

His vision traces the lines of the car's metal seams. He's just about got every single dent and ding in the ceiling memorized now. But he keeps his voice low:] Sick of this.

[Don hums, noncommittal. Soft taps of his fingertip against the tablet as he restarts the tutorial.]

Being stationary, or being scared?

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gotta actually have game to be a hoe leo

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